You Just Can't Figure Out What's Happening: Rubina Diliak On Depression

Rubina Dilaik on depression: After opening up about dealing with depression to Salman Khan in the reality show Bigg Boss 14, Rubina Dilaik further spoke about her battle with mental health issues. Dilaik had announced that she was returning to her hit show Shakti Astitva Ke Ehsaas Kii Show on March 10.

Rubina Dilaik revealed in a recent interview that she was going through a dark phase of her life nine years ago, where she used to have suicidal thoughts and she had no one around to ask for help. Dilaik also shared how she coped up with that phase of her life and became her own guide.

The Bigg Boss Season 14 winner had opened up about her battle against depression in front of Salman Khan on the reality television show. She had said that her marriage with television actor Abhinav Shukla was on the verge of coming to an end.

In her latest interview Dilaik said  that she was unstable, over-ambitious, insecure and didn't know what to do. She was also struggling to handle professional life with personal life. "Away from family, too much into work that did not give me time to make friends. In that situation, you just isolate yourself from the possibility of leading a happy, fulfilled life. That creates lack of empathy towards yourself," she said.

Speaking on the stigma attached to mental health issues, Dilaik said, "Too many questions and no answers. There I realised that the problem is somewhere within. There is a lot that I cannot understand, but there is also nobody to guide me. We do not have formal education about it, no one talks about depression."

Dilaik further shared how she finally managed to figure out her life and rise from the darkest phase of her life. "All I had was turning to self-help books, listening to audio tapes. Even asking for a psychologist was tabboo. I looked for it online. I think it was a blessing that work wasn't that great and relationship was at the lowest and I was looking for something to hold on." Dilaik revealed that she also turned to yoga and meditation to help herself heal.

Born and raised in Himachal Pradesh, Dilaik was a national level champion in debating during school and college and school days. She began her television career with the daily soap Choti Bahu and followed it up with Saas Bina Sasural, Punar Vivah- Ek Nayi Umeed, Devon Ke Dev...Mahadev and Jeannie aur Juju.

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